*kkrrriiiinnggg;

I stood up as I heard the bell rang. it’s break time already.

I went out of the room, fresh from mathematics subject, but instead of going to the cafeteria, I went straight to the library and choose the most corner of the big room.

I sat down and prepare myself to sleep. I don’t have that much sleep last night because I got into a fight with my boyfriend. Why? I straightforwardly asked him if he still love me, because I can feel that he no longer loves me. I can feel it. His cold messages, his cold treatment, his lack of I love you’s, his “busy” reasons for not having a time for me…

and even his affair with the popular student Council of this school.

Yes, I know that thing. every single thing about their secret affair. How he fucking confessed to her, When did it start, Where they went on their secret date, Where they went when they first get intimate to each other.

yes, every detail. It all started 2 months ago, and fucking yes, we’re still together even after knowing everything. why? because I love him.

yet, I don’t know why, but after watching how they kissed yesterday behind the school building with my own eyes, I suddenly felt the tiredness. tiredness towards everything. And pain hit me so hard to the point that I cried all day, all night.

as I bent my head down to the table and close my eyes, tears started falling from the depths of my eyes.

While crying, I slowly drifted into my dreamland.

*kkrrriiiinnggg;

I immediately open my eyes because of the sound of the bell.

“shit! I’m getting late!”

I quickly fix myself and my things before running out of the library and run again as fast as I can in the silent corridor now.

I’ve been running for about 3 minutes now yet I’m still far from the music room, my next subject.

“shit!”

I ran faster than a minute ago now if that’s even possible. I also ran upstairs. sweats are drifting to my eyelids and temple.

“fuck this stairs!”

I silently cussed as I ran, and when I reached the fourth floor of the building, I stop for awhile to catch my breath.

after a minute of breathing heavily, I started walking towards the music room’s door. I take a look at my wrist watch to check the time.

“crap! I’m already 15 minutes late.” I hissed.

I was about to twist the knob of the door when I reached it but imimmediatly stop myself when I heard a familiar rhythm of a song coming from inside the music room.

I take a look from outside the room through the window and what I saw literally broke me into pieces. I absentmindedly take a step backwards.

as I listen to the song, tears started rolling down to my cheeks.

“~You make me smile, take away all my fears. You hold me real close when you wipe away my tears. You love me for me and I’m thankful to have.. you with me~”

I closed my eyes as pain slowly eats the whole me.

“~You are my rainbow after the rain, You are my medicine after the pain. hold me close, don’t let go.. and stay with me~”

I sarcastically laugh at myself as I wipe the tears on my cheeks.

How ironic. The song he once sang for me, the song I love, but not anymore, the song I once cherished..

he was now singing it for her. My boyfriend, Luke.. was now singing it for the Popular student Council president, Aya.

“~girl close your eyes cause I want you to see, the future ahead for you and me.. hold me close don’t let go.. and stay with me~”

before he could finished the song, I quickly fix my face and twist the door knob. Tons of pairs of eyes were now looking at me, but my eyes were only looking to a specific person. him.

I can see the twinkle in his eyes as he look towards someone as if he’s really admiring that person. I followed where he’s looking at and what I saw makes all the blood in my body run up to my head.

it was her, also smiling, ear to ear, but as she looks at me, all those emotions I’ve seen awhile ago vanished. and all the blood on her face dissapeared. her smile slowly fades.

I take away my gaze at her and look straight to the teacher inside the room.

“I’m sorry for being late Ms.” I apologized then bow my head not minding other students stare.

The teacher folds her arms and look at me.

“I don’t accept tardy students in my class, but I’ll let you pass now, if you’ll sing a song for us.”

I was taken aback at first but immediately nod my head because I don’t want to be marked absent in this subject.

“good then, Mr. Laviste, please hand her the guitar” Ms. said.

Theo gave me the guitar but I didn’t bother looking at him. I take the guitar and started walking in towards the mini stage of this room. I sat down in the single high chair and fix the guitar before started strumming.

“~If the feelings is gone, please don’t pretend that you still love me~”

As I sing the first sentence of the song, excruciating pain hits me into the inner core of my body.

“~I can see it in your eyes, and it hurts to admit it, but I can tell if the feelings is gone~”

as I say those words, I look straight into Theo’s eyes and I can see the bother and uneasiness in his.

“~oh noo, all I ask is just a little honesty, though I know, that you’re not coming back to me.. ~”

I slowly closed my eyes after sayin those words and I can feel a lone tear roll down in my right cheek.

“~you know, I’ll do anything to make you stay, but I just have to let you go, If the feelings is gone.~”

I finished the song already and stood up. I secretly wipe the tear on my cheek and bow my head before leaving the guitar in the mini stage. I started walking towards the corner of the room and take my seat.

I can feel their eyes lurking on me but I didn’t mind them.

~

*kkrrriiiinnggg;

I started walking out of the room and make my way to my next subject. I was now walking down the stairs when someone grab my left wrist. I look at my back and Theo’s face surprise me.

“What do you want?” I plainly ask him as I take back my wrist from his grip.

“we need to talk.” He hesitatedly said.

I turn my whole body to him.

“We have nothing to talk about.. “

I said then smiled at him.

“but I want to tell you that I know everything. I’m aware of what’s happening. and I don’t to confirm it because what I saw yesterday confirms everything.”

shock and guilt was visible in his eyes as I said those words.

“I’m now breaking up with you. yes, I’m now letting you go. You can now freely announce to everyone about your relationship with her. don’t worry I’ll keep my mouth shut.”

I turn my back from him and started walking. As I walk down the corridor, tears started falling from the depths of my eyes.